With respect to my Owner,
So tonight was just like any other night until I walked into the Bordello....the first thing I heard was a scream of my name via the mouth of La Prez Cara and then in a blur I was finding myself beside Bree as I realised very quickly that she had gone into labour....suddenly things moved very quickly and getting all of us back to the clinic I began to take charge of the situation and finally peace and calm was in charge as I got Bree to concentrate on me and bring her 3 little kittens all girls arrive in the world....each one as beautiful as their Mom....Cara was in the water at her side and Nim and Dalton were there on hand to help us as we encouraged Bree to push with all her might...poor Cara her hand was hurting and her voice hoarse from counting backwards from 10 to help Bree with her timing.
The Birth was not complicated until the end when baby number 3 gave me a scare involving the cord being wrapped round it's neck but as all good midwives I was able to stay calm and work quick under pressure and Mom and babies are all doing well.
I love my job especially when I help to bring new life into Glint....it shows how the world is always moving on...it never stands still time doesn't and as Christmas approaches a time for loved ones friends and family to be to get together I realise just how lucky I am to be surrounded by all the important people in my life right here in Envision and Glint!
Signed his submissive owned
This blog/journal is an insight into my world as I learn to grow and explore in the hands of a man who quite literally completes me....it features information from both my Second Life (SL) world and Real Life (RL) world (where able to of course some things are far to private) enjoy and feel free to leave comments!
Tuesday 30 November 2010
Monday 29 November 2010
Yesterday
With respect to my Owner,
Over the last few days my Owner and I have been exploring our relationship, he has been testing my submission and will continue to do so over the next few months as we learn more about one another and what it is that we both need together and from each other. With that testing comes time to unwind and be us also and what better way than to tease each other with sexual encounters with others.
Yesterday was indeed one of those time and as we both used different parts of the house to entertain our guests and each other we both enjoyed the need to satisfy each other's expectations....of course as with any time this happens the need to be with each other afterwards and claim one another back was as strong as ever. The bond that we share is unbreakable we both understand what it is that we have...we both know the strength we get from it.
So here is another picture this time taken by my Owner of the two of us joining as one once more, reconnecting with each other, strengthening the bond that we have as a couple and as Owner/owned
Signed his submissive owned
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| As one once more |
Yesterday was indeed one of those time and as we both used different parts of the house to entertain our guests and each other we both enjoyed the need to satisfy each other's expectations....of course as with any time this happens the need to be with each other afterwards and claim one another back was as strong as ever. The bond that we share is unbreakable we both understand what it is that we have...we both know the strength we get from it.
So here is another picture this time taken by my Owner of the two of us joining as one once more, reconnecting with each other, strengthening the bond that we have as a couple and as Owner/owned
Signed his submissive owned
Sunday 28 November 2010
Our Weekend and going back to my roots
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| Going back to my roots |
So we have been together on and off all weekend and it has been just perfect....its great when business for my Owner mixes well with our family life but more than that my Owner and I have been able to spend quality time exploring what we both like and meeting new people and as we both have had time to discuss events going on in our lives with both our busy schedules I have decided to go back to my roots to understand what it is that makes me the submissive Kajira that I am so I am back in silks again for the majority of the time and along with my cuffs and my slut belt and because there is snow on the ground at home in Envision and in DD I am wearing some Leather Kajira shoes. I am proudly showing off my Owned tattoo and my Kajira branding alongside my leg tattoo.
So over the next few weeks I want to learn all it is that makes me who I am and learn my role as a Kajira once more to obey my Owner to be his submissive....yes there will be times when I can't be in silks my Owner understands that but whenever possible I will be his Submissive Owned Kajira in every sense of the words...clothes don't make a person it's what's inside what their heart desires...being true to one's self is and the one's you love is what counts
Oh and below is a photo of my beloved home in snow...I love Christmas!
Friday 26 November 2010
Dark Den in Snow....women can where shoes!
With respect to my Owner,
Christmas time in Glint...snow has fallen and a lovely tree stands by the entrance! My Owner and I went there this past week and saw the beautiful tree, we were surprised by the snow and more over surprised by La Prez as she lifted the footwear ban for women to save out toes from frostbite! I have to say it was nice of her to do so and visiting the place it looks quite different! Take a look for yourself
Signed his submissive owned
Christmas time in Glint...snow has fallen and a lovely tree stands by the entrance! My Owner and I went there this past week and saw the beautiful tree, we were surprised by the snow and more over surprised by La Prez as she lifted the footwear ban for women to save out toes from frostbite! I have to say it was nice of her to do so and visiting the place it looks quite different! Take a look for yourself
Signed his submissive owned
Thursday 25 November 2010
Quality time once more
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| In the Breeding Motel 1 year on! |
Spending time with my Owner last night was a joy from start to finish....I do so love quality time with him and I am without a doubt a very lucky woman and as my submissive nature shines through and takes me on a voyage of discovery I am learning so much about how we fit together and why it works the way it does from images that we see, things that we both like and experiences we both share they prove that we are indeed on the same wave length. As a treat for our 1 year celebration we headed back to the Breeding Motel and shared a passionate encounter with each other that reminded us both of how it all began....smiles...we have come a long way since then and it only gets better with time!
Every single day we share together we learn something new about ourselves, each other of the path we are choosing or continue to develop something already started. Both hungry with need and desire for each other, both so incredibly good for one another.Yes this is a journey we share together and revel in as we increase our knowledge, discover ourselves and together choose what is right for us a couple....what I am learning about the whole M/s or D/s lifestyle is that no 2 couples are the same and not all rules or teachings suit everyone, there really is no right or wrong as long as it works then it's good and for us this is working and can only become more intense as time passes.
Signed his submissive owned
Wednesday 24 November 2010
A year ago....
Are you sitting comfortably? Then I shall begin...
Let me tell you a story, a story about a woman who was unhappy and trapped in a loveless relationship, a story about a man who at the same time was half way across the world and in a marriage that also was suffering hardship. Through the Internet they met and became friends and together they enjoyed each others company, neither one of them looking for more than friendship and to fill empty voids in their lives. Together they grew close, they supported each other, made each other laugh, had fun, teased one another and fell in love. Fast forward to a year later and as the woman in our story types this entry in her blog she has a smile on her face and wears his collar around her neck a symbol of what she means to him as his Owned and how much he means to her as her Owner.
You see this is why I went with the Blog Title that I have, our worlds collided a year ago and to start with it really was us living in an internet fantasy world, a chance to get away from our mundane RL, away from the Relationships that restrained us and left us feeling empty, to have fun and reach out to other human beings and had we not met in the Breeding Motel Sim as we did it could be a whole different story now. But that's the best bit about our story, we did meet and we did get the chance to cross paths and now a year on our relationship is as solid as ever if not more so.
The last 12 months have flown by and in each others company we have both grown as people, we have made many friends and have been very lucky to experience things together that we may not have done with others. More than that though in that time he has become not only my best friend, my partner, my lover but also my Master/Owner which spans both our SL and RL. Our Commitment and love for once another is strong and shines through our RP with others and how we are when together be that in person or through technology. I never dreamt last year that I would travel half way across the world for 12 days to be with a man that I love and yet a few weeks ago I did exactly that.
Since I got back we have been making plans for the next 12 months and that too I know will fly by. As we take our Owner/owned relationship on a step further and learn more about what aspects of the M/s or D/s lifestyle that we like or wish to bring into our own relationship our lives will change even more. My Owner will have a tough few months ahead of him and I will be here to support him, to listen to him when he needs to talk and to sooth him as best I can from a distance and he knows that. Next November we will be together once more and who knows what plans we will have made and be making by then. All I do know is that I love him very much and that in his hands I walk tall, I feel loved, I am owned, he is able to control and command me as I submit to him (a part of my life that I was unable to fulfil before we met and more over hid from others as I lived a lie) and on top of that I have gained back so much self confidence for which I am truly grateful to him.
So who says that SL and RL can't work together? My Owner and I are proof that it can, it does and will continue to do so, if you want something, if its right and its meant to be...it will work!
Let me tell you a story, a story about a woman who was unhappy and trapped in a loveless relationship, a story about a man who at the same time was half way across the world and in a marriage that also was suffering hardship. Through the Internet they met and became friends and together they enjoyed each others company, neither one of them looking for more than friendship and to fill empty voids in their lives. Together they grew close, they supported each other, made each other laugh, had fun, teased one another and fell in love. Fast forward to a year later and as the woman in our story types this entry in her blog she has a smile on her face and wears his collar around her neck a symbol of what she means to him as his Owned and how much he means to her as her Owner.
You see this is why I went with the Blog Title that I have, our worlds collided a year ago and to start with it really was us living in an internet fantasy world, a chance to get away from our mundane RL, away from the Relationships that restrained us and left us feeling empty, to have fun and reach out to other human beings and had we not met in the Breeding Motel Sim as we did it could be a whole different story now. But that's the best bit about our story, we did meet and we did get the chance to cross paths and now a year on our relationship is as solid as ever if not more so.
The last 12 months have flown by and in each others company we have both grown as people, we have made many friends and have been very lucky to experience things together that we may not have done with others. More than that though in that time he has become not only my best friend, my partner, my lover but also my Master/Owner which spans both our SL and RL. Our Commitment and love for once another is strong and shines through our RP with others and how we are when together be that in person or through technology. I never dreamt last year that I would travel half way across the world for 12 days to be with a man that I love and yet a few weeks ago I did exactly that.
Since I got back we have been making plans for the next 12 months and that too I know will fly by. As we take our Owner/owned relationship on a step further and learn more about what aspects of the M/s or D/s lifestyle that we like or wish to bring into our own relationship our lives will change even more. My Owner will have a tough few months ahead of him and I will be here to support him, to listen to him when he needs to talk and to sooth him as best I can from a distance and he knows that. Next November we will be together once more and who knows what plans we will have made and be making by then. All I do know is that I love him very much and that in his hands I walk tall, I feel loved, I am owned, he is able to control and command me as I submit to him (a part of my life that I was unable to fulfil before we met and more over hid from others as I lived a lie) and on top of that I have gained back so much self confidence for which I am truly grateful to him.
So who says that SL and RL can't work together? My Owner and I are proof that it can, it does and will continue to do so, if you want something, if its right and its meant to be...it will work!
Tuesday 23 November 2010
Spending Time with my sister Tara
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| With Tara |
This week is an important week!
This week in America people celebrate Thanksgiving...a time for families to be together in each others company and give thanks for what they have, it is a harvest festival and as my Owner explained to me it is indeed bigger than Christmas.....of course here in the UK we celebrate Harvest differently in October and Christmas is the big Family event....anyway as it is important last week in our house on Envision I created a Thanksgiving area with signs and pumpkins and all sorts just to help my Owner feel in the mood and let him know how important he is to me and I think he was quite touched....after Thanksgiving I will place the Christmas tree there and make that my Christmas area!
However this morning that got me thinking that the Bordello in Dark Den needed a Thanksgiving feel to it so I have been to decorate that as well....not to much just a little bit and outside there is a basket with food and drink for people to help themselves to.....just my way of celebrating with them
Still this week is also important for another reason as far as my Owner and I are concerned...we celebrate a year of knowing one another....in a year we have both experienced so much and we both have so much more to seek and find....our relationship has changed on many levels over the last 12 months and I feel very lucky indeed....tomorrow 24th November is one year since we met that's 365 days and in that time I think hardly a day has passed where we have not been in contact somehow...from on SL to emails to instant message programmes and phone calls.....so tomorrow as we celebrate this milestone and look forward to the next I will thank my lucky stars that I have found my man and have indeed found myself....and as a new year in our relationship starts and we start to make more plans and move up a gear in our relationship I rest easy once more in the knowledge that my Owner will support me and command me as well as love me and as his submissive I return his love and strive to make him proud
However this morning that got me thinking that the Bordello in Dark Den needed a Thanksgiving feel to it so I have been to decorate that as well....not to much just a little bit and outside there is a basket with food and drink for people to help themselves to.....just my way of celebrating with them
Still this week is also important for another reason as far as my Owner and I are concerned...we celebrate a year of knowing one another....in a year we have both experienced so much and we both have so much more to seek and find....our relationship has changed on many levels over the last 12 months and I feel very lucky indeed....tomorrow 24th November is one year since we met that's 365 days and in that time I think hardly a day has passed where we have not been in contact somehow...from on SL to emails to instant message programmes and phone calls.....so tomorrow as we celebrate this milestone and look forward to the next I will thank my lucky stars that I have found my man and have indeed found myself....and as a new year in our relationship starts and we start to make more plans and move up a gear in our relationship I rest easy once more in the knowledge that my Owner will support me and command me as well as love me and as his submissive I return his love and strive to make him proud
Getting Better
OK so I haven't updated the blog with as much detail as normal as I have been suffering from a horrible nasty Cold that has quite literally knocked me sideways....although I have been in SL and have been trying to do my usual stuff I seem to have suffered from writers block....still at least I am now on the mend once more and hope that I will not suffer from any more this winter (honestly its been nasty and I am sure that my Owner will indeed confirm that he has been concerned) However as of this morning my writers block seems to have lifted and I am now free once more to continue as I was....smiles so blog entries coming up as always!
Sunday 21 November 2010
The Twins arrive...thanks to Auntie Selina
On Sunday I had a call from my little sister and the urgency in her voice was obvious...I asked her to calm down and finally I understood what it was she needed from me! Dropping what I was doing I raced home to Envision and to my clinic next door just in time for her and her partner to arrive. The pain on her face as she clasped her bump mixed with his continued pacing up and down on my brand new carpets confirmed as I expected that Lina was indeed in labour. Within minutes Lina and Gooz were surround by what can only be described as a gaggle of friends all will to be cheer leaders as the urged Lina to push....which at this stage she and I were not ready for.
After examining her I got Gooz to help her into the tub and as the contractions neared and strengthened amongst all the chaos in the room I got Lina to concentrate and push her twins into the world...one at a time they finally emerged first her little boy and then her little girl.
Lina and Gooz are now the proud parents of Leo and Jaenelle and as Auntie I am very proud to have had a hand in the birth.
Congratulations Mom and Dad and Happy Birthday Babies!
After examining her I got Gooz to help her into the tub and as the contractions neared and strengthened amongst all the chaos in the room I got Lina to concentrate and push her twins into the world...one at a time they finally emerged first her little boy and then her little girl.
Lina and Gooz are now the proud parents of Leo and Jaenelle and as Auntie I am very proud to have had a hand in the birth.
Congratulations Mom and Dad and Happy Birthday Babies!
Spending time with Master Odin
Its been a funny old weekend what with Master being away on business and with me feeling a little under the weather but thanks to the wonder of technology (installing that expensive PC in our bedroom was the best thing we ever did and the desk is very comfy when it comes to having 'fun') we have been able to stay in contact....that said Master was able to make a surprise visit to see me this morning and it was lovely to have him with me for a while but all to soon business took him away again and left me in our big house with our children and the dog for company....of course I miss him when he is away work has been busy for him recently but I do so love it when he comes home with treats....my goodies cupboard is full of treats that I just can't get elsewhere so I always look forward to the gifts he brings from his travel and that reminds me I must ask him to bring back some chocolate my supply is a little on the low side!
Thursday 18 November 2010
Feeling under the weather
Today I get on to spend time with my Owner and we play with a friend of his Cosmic....nice gal enjoyed her company....however it would appear that I am going down with a cold or something and in the end my Owner sent me to bed....I tried for an hour to get comfy and sleep but struggling to breathe I ended up back on line with my Owner for a bit and then went to the DD to spend time in the Bordello which took my mind off how I was feeling but honestly if the posts for the next few days are sparse please excuse me my head is pounding and I can't think straight!
Wednesday 17 November 2010
A great Friend
Tuesday 16 November 2010
The call of my 2nd Home
Tonight I had a chat with a couple of people and suddenly over a few short minutes I was struck with a realisation that what I need is to spend more time in Dark Den (DD)
DD has been my second home for so long but well due to a couple of issues Master and I left there to set up our home in Envision....I love our home it's big...its comfy...it has all we need for each other and to entertain others but sometimes when Master isn't around it can be lonely and I find myself in DD....when we moved out it was like a sigh of relief we could be us enjoy each other and of course we still do but when he is on business I find myself wanting to be surrounded by those people who made me feel so welcome when I first arrived in DD and of late Master and I have been in DD more to so it will be good for him to I think!
So like birds are called back to their nesting sites each year it appears that DD is calling me home when he is not around....so I am going to go back to spending more time in DD....right now V and I have the Bordello to keep us busy and with live Friday night entertainment and special events to plan and take part in not to mention Thanks Giving Christmas and New Year coming up I think it's time I stepped up to my Role once more...since our family got back off our trip I have been busy with household chores and such like and have not been in DD as much as I should so now I have every intention of getting on with things and when on rare occasions business is not calling Master in the week or at weekends (when all the hard work of the week has been done) I can retreat to paradise and relax with my Master...I think they call that the best of both worlds! So in this case I really can have my cake and eat it!
DD has been my second home for so long but well due to a couple of issues Master and I left there to set up our home in Envision....I love our home it's big...its comfy...it has all we need for each other and to entertain others but sometimes when Master isn't around it can be lonely and I find myself in DD....when we moved out it was like a sigh of relief we could be us enjoy each other and of course we still do but when he is on business I find myself wanting to be surrounded by those people who made me feel so welcome when I first arrived in DD and of late Master and I have been in DD more to so it will be good for him to I think!
So like birds are called back to their nesting sites each year it appears that DD is calling me home when he is not around....so I am going to go back to spending more time in DD....right now V and I have the Bordello to keep us busy and with live Friday night entertainment and special events to plan and take part in not to mention Thanks Giving Christmas and New Year coming up I think it's time I stepped up to my Role once more...since our family got back off our trip I have been busy with household chores and such like and have not been in DD as much as I should so now I have every intention of getting on with things and when on rare occasions business is not calling Master in the week or at weekends (when all the hard work of the week has been done) I can retreat to paradise and relax with my Master...I think they call that the best of both worlds! So in this case I really can have my cake and eat it!
And Finally...more happy news!
La Prez has something to smile about....I have indeed been very worried about her over the last few weeks as both her pets were released from their collars and she seemed so down and yet today I hear good news that the return of a good friend Master Goldfire has indeed put a smile back on her face and a spring in her step....that can only be good for her and for them...they had a rough time of it way back and both need some happiness...so for now I can breathe easy once more that La Prez is happy and being looked after...wait till Master hears...he will indeed be very happy....he has spoken many times of hoping they would indeed be together once more!
More Wedding News!
My Sister did indeed get married last October (2009) and it was a wonderful day if not a little tense in places but it was a very good day, the weather held out and I am pleased to have such a lovely Brother-in-Law...now all I am waiting for is the patter of tiny feet from them...grins
I only have One Brother and One Sister (both younger than me) so to see them both grow up and settle down is something I cherish. I may not see 'eye to eye' with my little Sister (the Princess as I refer to her as) but as the eldest I do look out for them both....regardless of what may or may not have happened between us in the past...I am of course the black sheep in the family...I like to do things my own way and not conform as the others may do or as people believe I should do....that is my choice...life has been a little harder for me and now as I reflect on it I see myself in a much happier place because of one man....I would not change my life (well not all of it) as it has shaped me into the person I am and has allowed me to take paths that I may not have taken otherwise...for now I count my blessings and take each day as it comes (well I try to keep my feet on the ground)...who knows what the future holds for any of us.
Awwww...what lovely news!
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| The Happy Couple |
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| Wearing Diana's Ring |
Monday 15 November 2010
Time with my Master once more
Sunday 14 November 2010
Lina's Baby Shower
So yesterday I had to lie to my little sister and try to convince her that no-one was throwing her a Baby Shower....god I am so not good at telling lies....anyway eventually the 'Father to be' Gooz sent me a directions to the baby shower and taking a gift from Master and I of a Twins Heart shape Cot and balloons I headed to the party...once everyone was there and all gifts were on display we waited for the Mom to be to arrive and finally after what seemed like ages she arrived looking lovely (being pregnant really suits her) and the fun began...before she arrived we all lined up and performed the Thriller Dance for her...all in a line to...she was made up! She ended up joining in with the dancing (and for a heavily pregnant woman she can move) and of course there were plenty of hugs all round....I can honestly say that she was very happy and I think her and Gooz will make wonderful parents just as Master and I do...I can not wait to meet their little ones...watch this space it won't be long and as midwife and Auntie can I just say I'll be having my cuddles once Mom and Dad do!
Saturday 13 November 2010
Time to get back to normal in the Farshore/Winterwolf Household
OK so I unpacked all the suitcases...did the washing....made sure the kids and Farshore Pup are fed and happy...Master had business to attend to and now all is back in order in the house....just another typical day then...grins....I have somewhere to be tonight....more news on that to follow tomorrow!
I have done some decorating in the house today well Thanksgiving is around the corner for Master and we have a yummy treat that I hope will make him laugh on the table in the lounge!
Yep all is as it should be once more....welcome home my family....now if I could just have this baby.....
I have done some decorating in the house today well Thanksgiving is around the corner for Master and we have a yummy treat that I hope will make him laugh on the table in the lounge!
Yep all is as it should be once more....welcome home my family....now if I could just have this baby.....
Friday 12 November 2010
Where did the Day go?
OK so some days life just passes by in a blur....take today for instance....I awake early (again) and head to work once ready....work is busy then quiet then busy then quiet and this goes on all day....you look at the clock and notice the time and look puzzled as you wonder where the morning went....lunch and then back to work and suddenly without warning you hear from the radio the unmistakable tones of the hourly Pips and looking at the clock as you once more gasp realising the day is almost over 1 hour to go.....god if only every day could be like this....grins
So as soon as I was able to get out I find myself on my doorstep...no idea how I got home...can hardly remember the walk except for stopping at the post office on the way....I know it was raining but for some reason I just cant remember walking it which means my mind was elsewhere or blank....now for anyone who knows me 'blank' is not how I would explain my mind....it is often busy...very busy....in fact it's what makes me wake up early every day without fail almost much to my annoyance, my Owner has pointed out (and rightly so I might add), I need to learn to sleep in so I can live longer...chuckles
So I get home drag the dog out for a walk....which annoyed him as he hates getting wet....I get back grab my tea and settle in front of the laptop and suddenly I realise that the day really has flown by.....it's not often that I take stock of my day but now as I sit here and catch up on other blogs as I type my own I realise that I must be settling back into my normal pattern once more and of course in a way that is good but in others it makes me realise that time really does fly by....fun or not
So as soon as I was able to get out I find myself on my doorstep...no idea how I got home...can hardly remember the walk except for stopping at the post office on the way....I know it was raining but for some reason I just cant remember walking it which means my mind was elsewhere or blank....now for anyone who knows me 'blank' is not how I would explain my mind....it is often busy...very busy....in fact it's what makes me wake up early every day without fail almost much to my annoyance, my Owner has pointed out (and rightly so I might add), I need to learn to sleep in so I can live longer...chuckles
So I get home drag the dog out for a walk....which annoyed him as he hates getting wet....I get back grab my tea and settle in front of the laptop and suddenly I realise that the day really has flown by.....it's not often that I take stock of my day but now as I sit here and catch up on other blogs as I type my own I realise that I must be settling back into my normal pattern once more and of course in a way that is good but in others it makes me realise that time really does fly by....fun or not
Thursday 11 November 2010
Being back in SL
So for the last 2 days as soon as I log in someone greets me and then waits for tales of the time I spent with my Owner...smiles....it's nice to be back in SL amongst friends and although I miss my Owner very much everyone is helping me to fill the void....smiles
I can see a few things have changed while I have been away including having to put our house right...no idea how or when the walls moved but with my builders hard hat on I set to work making the structure sound again for my family the last thing I want is one of the kids hurt or far worse than that....my Owner hurt.....so I have been making sure that the house is safe and makes a perfect home once more....well both Odin and I have taken pride and care in the place we call ours
I can see a few things have changed while I have been away including having to put our house right...no idea how or when the walls moved but with my builders hard hat on I set to work making the structure sound again for my family the last thing I want is one of the kids hurt or far worse than that....my Owner hurt.....so I have been making sure that the house is safe and makes a perfect home once more....well both Odin and I have taken pride and care in the place we call ours
Wednesday 10 November 2010
Adjusting
So today is my last day off before I head back to work....slowly I am adjusting to being back....I am sure it will take a few days...smiles...and now I can get back into a normal routine and look at planning the next time My Owner and I can be back together
Tuesday 9 November 2010
Home again
So here I am on my laptop updating you all once more my head still a little fuzzy from a mixture of feelings and thoughts...but I am home and as my Owner said to me last night...there is no place like home....as much as this may be true I can't help but miss him....still I am sure I speak for both of us when I say that we would not have it any other way right now....our time to be together will come
So there we have it....yes I had a wonderful time...yes I am proud to be his owned...yes I miss him....and yes I can't wait to be back in his arms...as we plan our next time together a smile crosses my lips!
So there we have it....yes I had a wonderful time...yes I am proud to be his owned...yes I miss him....and yes I can't wait to be back in his arms...as we plan our next time together a smile crosses my lips!
Monday 8 November 2010
Sadness and Happiness
So here I am once more 12 hours from my flight home....my mind racing of all the fun and pleasure I have had since I got here....Right now I am on my Owner's Laptop trying to put my thoughts into words....
I have had a wonderful time...no scrap that and make that an amazing time....I am more in love with my Owner now than I was before I joined him and you all know how much I loved him then....chuckles
However I can't stop the tears from welling up as I think of returning home....of leaving him....of being apart once more....knowing that it will probably be a whole year before we are back together again....365 days....wow seems such a long time to wait...and yet we managed the last 11 months and that flew by so the next 12 months will do to.....there will be many hurdles ahead of us....my Owner has some tough times ahead of him that I can only sit back and watch him go through supporting him from a distance when I really want to be by his side squeezing his hand and helping him
On November 24th we will have met each other 12 months ago.....1 whole year....in that time things for both of us have changed dramatically and I have learnt more about myself and who I am than I have ever done before....would I change anything?.....no....well apart from the obvious distance of course....we can't always have want we want in life and when you do find something that works....thats right....grab it with both hands....don't let things pass you by....don't play mind games with each other....enjoy what you have because life sometimes has a funny way of bringing people together when they need it the most and that's when you appreciate every single moment more
All that is important to me right now is that I enjoy my last day by his side showering him with my love as his Owned and look forward to our relationship growing ever closer over the next 12 months....with his collar around my neck its the one item that will keep me going even when things are tough...and after I leave tonight and set off on my journey my thoughts will be of him as I am sure my tears will flow then....knowing that the next time I hear his voice will be on the phone on his way home from work tomorrow night on a road I now know as we both settle into our normal every day pattern once again and on Thursday I to will return to work a different person...someone who has grown and is confident and happy basking in the love of a man who no matter how far away from me will be there always
At the weekend Odin and Winterwolf will be together once more side by side....that will bring the smile back to my face but for now its the RL that matters....its what we have together that is special
Finally My Owner,
I love you more than I could ever say and already I know how much I will miss you....but it won't be forever....just for a while....I am your Owned and always will be....and as I type this and fumble with the tassle on your collar my eyes full of tears I hope that we will always be this close and happy....and yes I am happy more than I ever thought possible....you have shown me what it's like to love again and be loved by a proper gentleman....from the soft gentle moments to the times we raw with laughter and from the bottom of my heart I can't tell you how much you mean to me there just isn't the words...I will be right by your side supporting you no matter how hard things get over the next 12 months.....but then I am sure that you already know that
I have had a wonderful time...no scrap that and make that an amazing time....I am more in love with my Owner now than I was before I joined him and you all know how much I loved him then....chuckles
However I can't stop the tears from welling up as I think of returning home....of leaving him....of being apart once more....knowing that it will probably be a whole year before we are back together again....365 days....wow seems such a long time to wait...and yet we managed the last 11 months and that flew by so the next 12 months will do to.....there will be many hurdles ahead of us....my Owner has some tough times ahead of him that I can only sit back and watch him go through supporting him from a distance when I really want to be by his side squeezing his hand and helping him
On November 24th we will have met each other 12 months ago.....1 whole year....in that time things for both of us have changed dramatically and I have learnt more about myself and who I am than I have ever done before....would I change anything?.....no....well apart from the obvious distance of course....we can't always have want we want in life and when you do find something that works....thats right....grab it with both hands....don't let things pass you by....don't play mind games with each other....enjoy what you have because life sometimes has a funny way of bringing people together when they need it the most and that's when you appreciate every single moment more
All that is important to me right now is that I enjoy my last day by his side showering him with my love as his Owned and look forward to our relationship growing ever closer over the next 12 months....with his collar around my neck its the one item that will keep me going even when things are tough...and after I leave tonight and set off on my journey my thoughts will be of him as I am sure my tears will flow then....knowing that the next time I hear his voice will be on the phone on his way home from work tomorrow night on a road I now know as we both settle into our normal every day pattern once again and on Thursday I to will return to work a different person...someone who has grown and is confident and happy basking in the love of a man who no matter how far away from me will be there always
At the weekend Odin and Winterwolf will be together once more side by side....that will bring the smile back to my face but for now its the RL that matters....its what we have together that is special
Finally My Owner,
I love you more than I could ever say and already I know how much I will miss you....but it won't be forever....just for a while....I am your Owned and always will be....and as I type this and fumble with the tassle on your collar my eyes full of tears I hope that we will always be this close and happy....and yes I am happy more than I ever thought possible....you have shown me what it's like to love again and be loved by a proper gentleman....from the soft gentle moments to the times we raw with laughter and from the bottom of my heart I can't tell you how much you mean to me there just isn't the words...I will be right by your side supporting you no matter how hard things get over the next 12 months.....but then I am sure that you already know that
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