Just a spooky message...

With respect to my Owner,

Happy Halloween to everyone where ever you may be, whatever you may be doing, have an enjoyable and safe one!

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

16 days and counting!

With respect to my Owner

Can you believe just how quickly time has flown? In 4 days time it will have been 1 whole year since I flew to America to be with my Owner! In 14 days time I start my holiday and in 16 days time, 1 year and 1 day after I left my Owner to come back to the UK, I will be in his arms once more!

Where has the last year gone? When I flew home my heart was heavy and the tears flowed, then I knew it would be a year till I saw him and I thought a year would never end. 3 weeks later Thanksgiving arrived and so did our 1st anniversary then Christmas and New Year and before we knew it Valentines day. Then my Owner's birthday and Easter followed by the summer and my birthday and now we are just days away from being together once more!

Right now the excitement in me is building day on day....plans for our holiday are coming together and soon Odin and his Wife will be taking a well deserved break for 2 in an unknown location away from the camera's and press while they have some quality time together!

In the last year we both have explored the D/s path more, we have explored each other and our limits and we have laughed a lot, we are both looking forward to the events that will unfold in a couple of weeks and are also making plans for the future.

I am a very lucky submissive....it's as simple as that...nearly 2 years on our love has deepened and we are closer than we have ever been and long may it continue! I am quite simply...my Owner's owned.

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

Submission....

With respect to my Owner,

Now I enjoy reading, when I get time to do such, and as I have an IPod I have been finding the joys of Kindle...now as part of a hunt through the Amazon Kindle Book Shop I came across a lot of stories on submission and was intrigued to read the snippets to see what they were about. Some were stories of erotica and submission, others were self help books, some were written on the subject of the D/s relationship.

One book though caught my eye and was written by a submissive about the first encounters of her and her Sir. It was indeed well written and wasn't to long, I mean I read the whole thing in an hour. Essentially it was a collection of her diary entries as she tried to figure out why she was so attracted to this man and the hold he had over her. It talked about the adventures they had in his car before they even had sex how he pushed her close to the edge to experience feelings of being out of control being totally at the hands of another just by driving the car at fast speed the roof down, blindfolded with her hands tied behind the back of the seat above her head, it was all about building trust, showing her that she could be controlled even though her normal day life meant she wanted and could be in control with him she surrendered. Of course it went on to describe finally the moment they had sex and it totally blew her mind because waiting for it, learning to trust him, submitting to him as her Sir a whole new world she had never experienced before brought her release like no other every had or ever would.

There in the words of that book were the descriptions of the feelings that I feel bubble in me everyday. The control I give to my Owner even with this physical distance between us and the surrender that will pour from me when we are together next month are clearly written in the words used by that submissive. From the moment we realised that the D/s path and lifestyle was something we both wanted more than we could explain we have been building the trust and anticipation of all that this will give us, release is something that we both now can achieve together, we know each other's desires and we have been pushing boundaries and there will be more boundaries to push but we know the limits for now.

I want to do my Owner proud, I want to please him, I want to satisfy him, I want to feel his control and obey his commands as I surrender and submit to the man that completes me and holds the key to who I am.

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

3 weeks to go!

With respect to my Owner,

OK so the countdown is really hotting up now....days are thundering by and blurring into one after the other...3 weeks or 21 days till we are together once more!

I can't wait to see my Owner, 365 days is a long time to not see the one you love and need but its something we have to deal with and get through...and we have...brig on the day when we can be together always

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

RL Post...lost for words

With respect to my Owner,

My Owner is full of surprises...and can leave me speechless on occasion but sometimes he can and does render me totally dumbfounded...take tonight....while we were on line we got chatting about Christmas and our upcoming holiday and suddenly something I was looking at buying he brought for me as my Christmas present and left me unable to speak...I would like to thank him from the bottom of my heart, I know he already knows that but I feel like I could say it a thousand times over.

Have I ever told you just how amazing my Owner is?.....

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

Twins progress...

With respect to my Owner,

12 weeks scan

So of late I haven't mentioned the pregnancy much...so I thought it was time to up date you....so attached are the most recent 2 pictures taking at 12 and 16 weeks...with thing going like they have been we haven't got round to the next scan yet so I can't tell you the exact date or what we are having because well....we don't know...the dating scan is normally done around week 20...I think we will probably do that in the next couple of weeks or so when I am just over 20 weeks pregnant. Watching my bump grow has been a joy...I am sure that my Owner has been enjoying it too!

16 weeks scan

I have no time to put my feet up though and am busy still sorting out things for our holiday. Then soon after we get back the older Children will be returning home for the Holidays and the house will be filled with mess and noise! I already have the cupboard stocked with treats and I know they will want to be baking in the Kitchen, especially Laci she has a passion for that, the usual Christmas goodies like Mince Pies and Sausage Rolls and there will be flour everywhere but all to soon the Holidays will be over so I plan to make the most of it. Who knows when these 2 little ones will appear, but one thing is for certain...we are ready for them and will enjoy every second because all too soon they will be grown up too!

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

Quote of the day....

With respect to my Owner,

Thanks to our good friend Cara here is the Quote of the Day and it's a little Gem....

'Our sex bag has now been upgraded to sex luggage, with wheels, and now features a first aid kit. Game. On.'

That I love....made me and my Owner howl with laughter!

Now I wonder how you slip that into Role Play?......

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

My Badass Pirate!

With respect to my Owner,

There are times when my Owner just has me in stitches and tonight was certainly one of those times.

We finally decided on a Boat for the Land, we have been looking for ages and I stumbled upon the Hurricane 300 quite by chance! I wasn't even looking for it while I was out and when I saw it I fell in love with it. Thank god so did my Owner!

The boat remains for now at least unnamed at the moment but I am sure we will come up with something for it in the near future...well something less nasty than the names I could have called it earlier on this evening...anyway while I got frustrated with the boat and it's control's much to the amusement of my Owner, he headed off saying that there was something he needed.

My Owner.....Pirate Odin

He was back 10 minutes later and as I howled with laughter the stress of the boat was soon forgotten....oh yeah my Pirate is without a doubt a Badass!....even with the Bunny Slippers..."shiver me timbers"

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

RL posting....How Family changes....

With respect to my Owner,

My little Brother, I say little I mean he is 5 and a half years younger than me, gets married in just over a month's time, which is how come my Owner is coming to me this year rather than me to him like we did last year.

In the last 2 years my family has changed, my Sister (also younger by 19 months) got married in October 2009 and now in November 2011 my Brother will be joining the married rank.

My Brother-in-law is lovely, and I do mean really lovely. He and my Sister really do suit each other and she has changed a lot since meeting him. Once upon a time my Sister and I didn't get on at all but we certainly get on better now than we did, however she still is and always will be the little Princess!

As for my soon to be Sister-in-law, well I have always got on with her but I still have my reservations about her, she can act a little odd at times and my Brother allows her to boss him around, but my Brother is happy and that really is all that matters!

So as one of 3 siblings that just leaves me...well as we all know I am happy I am owned and belong to the most amazing Owner and Man and in November they all get to meet each other and I am sure that they will all love him as much as I do.

As for us, in November as America celebrates Thanksgiving, my Owner and I will be celebrating 2 years since we met and yes we will be apart once more as he will have gone home 4 days before, but you know I am never really apart from him, not when you think about it. Yes I may be physically, but mentally, in my heart and via technology we are always together, of course it's harder some days than other's. Yes I will miss him when he leaves to head home...but....next year 2012 will be our year. We always have said 2012 was what we were aiming for, which if you think about it really isn't far away and earlier this year we discussed that hopefully I will be with him sometime between April and August...so honestly when the tears surface as he leaves me, when I struggle to hold my head high and keep my emotions in check, I will try to remember that we won't be apart for much longer!

I know that my Owner will read this, I know that he will be smiling as he reads, so to my Owner....I am your owned, I have been for a long time now and always will be...I love you my Owner and Man.

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

Squealing is excitement....

With respect to my Owner,

Until we travel!

Aren't these 2 pictures the most beautiful sight in the world? Of course as each day goes by and it changes it will look even more beautiful! Now I am looking forward to single figures for the days!

Until we are in each other arms once more!

It's a wonderful feeling knowing that very soon I will be safely in his arms once more 365 days are almost over! Who would have thought it would have gone this quick in the end?

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

I month 1 day or 4 weeks 4 days or 32 days and 3663 miles to go!

With respect to my Owner,

If you could all see me now you would clearly see the happiness on my face...just a few minutes ago I realised just how little time is left before I see my Owner once more!

Its funny when I started to count down it was 26 weeks to go and I couldn't believe we still had so long to wait....now I can't believe how fast time has flown and as I think back to this time last year with just 19 days to go then before I flew to be with my Owner the same intense excitement is now beginning to grip me once more. I know that I shall remain calm until the weekend before but that one day back at work on the Monday will be a killer. How I will keep my feet on the ground that day I have no idea! I know that the Tuesday, the first day of my holiday the day before I travel, I shall be counting the hours till my Owner finishes work and heads to the airport! Then let the fun begin, as he flies I will be travelling by coach both heading to the same destination and it can't come a moment too so in my eyes!

So the next month I hope passes in a blur....I hope it just disappears in the blink of an eye...we have 12 days together that will go so quickly just as they did when I visited him, but we will make the most of them just as we did then and will do again this time.

So your have to excuse me if I keep counting days....your have to forgive me if all I can talk about is the holiday and my Owner. I am one very excited submissive!

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

Orgasm Denial....

With respect to my Owner,

OK so picture the scene if you will....
It's late at night and by late I mean the early hours of the morning. Your on SL with your Owner/Master/Partner/Lover and the RP is very intense and I do mean VERY intense. There are elements of RL going through it and your on the edge of an almighty orgasm and then...RL takes over and you have to leave the happy place you were in.

Oh boy Orgasm Denial is without a doubt the most amazing thing in the world. OK so I don't want to give away all the details but I can assure you that my Owner had me right on the edge and he was loving every second of it and then because of the time zone difference, which sometimes can be such a pain, we had to stop.

Have you tried stopping? Have you tried holding back? Do you have any idea how hard that is? Your body is in such a relaxed state, your heart is pounding, you know just one more word could send you right over the edge into ripples and spasms of pleasure and trying to come down off that high takes willpower and determination.

But something I learnt to is that there is real pleasure in that as well. It has a very weird and powerful reaction on the mind and the body and I can assure you that I slept well. In fact I had the most amazing nights sleep. I guess because other things in my real life had resolved themselves and my body was so relaxed my brain switched off and I found myself in a deep sleep and this morning I feel happy and refreshed and love life.

So do I like Orgasm Denial? I think the answer is yes, as a once in a while treat to have the senses tingling and send me into a much happier place but I am not sure I could handle that regularly

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

Things happen for a reason

With respect to my Owner,

So as you may already be aware, RL work has been a cause for concern for me over recent weeks and months and yesterday finally to an extent it was dealt with. It actually had some surprising results in my eyes but still has things that need to be worked upon.

However I do feel much more relaxed and am finally taking a deep breath once more which I know is a relief to my Owner who has seen me probably at my worst over the last couple of weeks and I owe him the biggest hug when I see him. So apart from ironing out a couple of issues with management I can now concentrate on looking forward to my Holiday and being with my Owner once more.

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

D/s=(Control+Command)x(Love+Guidance)

With respect to my Owner,

So as you should all be aware by now there is a massive ocean and many, many, many miles between my Owner and I. However we have found a way to not let that bother us as we go about our lives never far from each other thoughts and almost always in contact in one way or another.

However as time has gone by I have found that bit by bit, as we opened up to this D/s part of our lives and enjoyed the closeness and the freedom that goes with it, control is something I crave from him every day. The more we have settled into this the more we are finding ways to allow him that control, even with the distance between us.

And just this past week that has proved to be a god send. In moments when RL work gets on top of me, or SL has fits and things I want to do don't work, or simply when I need him most and miss him more than I ever thought possible, that control that he has shines through and takes over. Suddenly I give him everything, no holding back and I hang on to his every spoken word or command and obey all that he tells me until he is satisfied that I am calm once more.

Currently my RL work is a cause for major concern and has left me feeling somewhat lost and confused as well as very angry and sad all at the same time. As I struggle to find order in my work life and approach this week with care my Owner has come into his own. His words can clearly be heard in my head in quiet moments, his commands in email understood and taken on-board. His collar, that I wear so proudly, and his love and protection mean so much to me right now and just when I felt like hiding from the world, admitting to him that I felt a failure, he reminded me that this is not the case, that the people I work for, the ones who should be keeping my best interests in mind are the ones that have failed and let me down.

And so another lesson is learnt, one that I knew but took for granted, when a submissive/slave and their Owner (Master or Mistress) really connect, on so many levels, the guidance that the Owner imparts on their owned is as important as every other part of their D/s lifestyle.

I know that the last week has been hard on him as he has listened to my struggles and heard my tears, knowing that he can only comfort and sooth me with words when I am sure that what he really wants to do is pull me close to him and protect me from the world and that although he can't do that physically he has managed to do that through the control and command that we have been exploring and building upon since we stumbled upon these desires that make us and our relationship tick.

So my Owner I just want to say 'Thank you' to you, although right now the words don't seem to be enough, for being my rock. I am, of course, aware that this week will be just as hard as the last in some respects, but not in others, however you are the strength that gets me through this and will help me to see clearly on the other side and in a few weeks time you do get to pull me close to you once more and I can't wait for that, because quite honestly, I need my Owner.

signed his submissive owned
447-342-364

Not Busy enough?....Family grows again

With Respect to my Owner,

With just over a month to go before my Owner and I take a well deserved break, you would think I had enough to do. Apparently it would appear not....so picture the scene if you will.

I was packing the first part of our suitcases and tidying stuff away, what with the kids away at school it was stuff they wouldn't need for a while and deciding on which pictures from the mountains of wedding pictures that we have to put in the album. Anyway it struck me watching Farshore Pup and Kitty sleeping that they were both getting on in their years. I was smiling as I thought about how much joy they had brought the kids as they grew up and at that very moment one of the twins I was carrying moved around and gave me an idea. I wanted out twins to have pets to keep them company so I headed out in search of a new family pet. Ideally I wanted one the twins could share maybe something different.

Now my Owner knows I am a sucker for anything cute and you guessed it...stopping at one pet with twins was never going to cut it....so I ended up buying 2 kittens...Peridot (the male) and Amethyst (the female) pictures below and of course that also meant bowls and food and milk and baskets and toys. My poor will hate when the bill comes in....but they are so cute...scampering around the house and all sorts.

The Kittens

Cute....the kittens I mean!

So not only am I almost half way through this Pregnancy carrying two bundles of life within, I am now chasing two little bundles all over the house. My Owner was rather surprised when he returned from business to find the two of them curled up asleep, but not that surprised he knows what I am like by now.

Peridot

Amethyst

Still they are cute....



signed his submissive owned
447-342-364