With respect to my Owner,
My little Brother, I say little I mean he is 5 and a half years younger than me, gets married in just over a month's time, which is how come my Owner is coming to me this year rather than me to him like we did last year.
In the last 2 years my family has changed, my Sister (also younger by 19 months) got married in October 2009 and now in November 2011 my Brother will be joining the married rank.
My Brother-in-law is lovely, and I do mean really lovely. He and my Sister really do suit each other and she has changed a lot since meeting him. Once upon a time my Sister and I didn't get on at all but we certainly get on better now than we did, however she still is and always will be the little Princess!
As for my soon to be Sister-in-law, well I have always got on with her but I still have my reservations about her, she can act a little odd at times and my Brother allows her to boss him around, but my Brother is happy and that really is all that matters!
So as one of 3 siblings that just leaves me...well as we all know I am happy I am owned and belong to the most amazing Owner and Man and in November they all get to meet each other and I am sure that they will all love him as much as I do.
As for us, in November as America celebrates Thanksgiving, my Owner and I will be celebrating 2 years since we met and yes we will be apart once more as he will have gone home 4 days before, but you know I am never really apart from him, not when you think about it. Yes I may be physically, but mentally, in my heart and via technology we are always together, of course it's harder some days than other's. Yes I will miss him when he leaves to head home...but....next year 2012 will be our year. We always have said 2012 was what we were aiming for, which if you think about it really isn't far away and earlier this year we discussed that hopefully I will be with him sometime between April and August...so honestly when the tears surface as he leaves me, when I struggle to hold my head high and keep my emotions in check, I will try to remember that we won't be apart for much longer!
I know that my Owner will read this, I know that he will be smiling as he reads, so to my Owner....I am your owned, I have been for a long time now and always will be...I love you my Owner and Man.
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
This blog/journal is an insight into my world as I learn to grow and explore in the hands of a man who quite literally completes me....it features information from both my Second Life (SL) world and Real Life (RL) world (where able to of course some things are far to private) enjoy and feel free to leave comments!
Sunday, 9 October 2011
Squealing is excitement....
With respect to my Owner,
Aren't these 2 pictures the most beautiful sight in the world? Of course as each day goes by and it changes it will look even more beautiful! Now I am looking forward to single figures for the days!
It's a wonderful feeling knowing that very soon I will be safely in his arms once more 365 days are almost over! Who would have thought it would have gone this quick in the end?
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
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| Until we travel! |
Aren't these 2 pictures the most beautiful sight in the world? Of course as each day goes by and it changes it will look even more beautiful! Now I am looking forward to single figures for the days!
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| Until we are in each other arms once more! |
It's a wonderful feeling knowing that very soon I will be safely in his arms once more 365 days are almost over! Who would have thought it would have gone this quick in the end?
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
Saturday, 8 October 2011
I month 1 day or 4 weeks 4 days or 32 days and 3663 miles to go!
With respect to my Owner,
If you could all see me now you would clearly see the happiness on my face...just a few minutes ago I realised just how little time is left before I see my Owner once more!
Its funny when I started to count down it was 26 weeks to go and I couldn't believe we still had so long to wait....now I can't believe how fast time has flown and as I think back to this time last year with just 19 days to go then before I flew to be with my Owner the same intense excitement is now beginning to grip me once more. I know that I shall remain calm until the weekend before but that one day back at work on the Monday will be a killer. How I will keep my feet on the ground that day I have no idea! I know that the Tuesday, the first day of my holiday the day before I travel, I shall be counting the hours till my Owner finishes work and heads to the airport! Then let the fun begin, as he flies I will be travelling by coach both heading to the same destination and it can't come a moment too so in my eyes!
So the next month I hope passes in a blur....I hope it just disappears in the blink of an eye...we have 12 days together that will go so quickly just as they did when I visited him, but we will make the most of them just as we did then and will do again this time.
So your have to excuse me if I keep counting days....your have to forgive me if all I can talk about is the holiday and my Owner. I am one very excited submissive!
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
If you could all see me now you would clearly see the happiness on my face...just a few minutes ago I realised just how little time is left before I see my Owner once more!
Its funny when I started to count down it was 26 weeks to go and I couldn't believe we still had so long to wait....now I can't believe how fast time has flown and as I think back to this time last year with just 19 days to go then before I flew to be with my Owner the same intense excitement is now beginning to grip me once more. I know that I shall remain calm until the weekend before but that one day back at work on the Monday will be a killer. How I will keep my feet on the ground that day I have no idea! I know that the Tuesday, the first day of my holiday the day before I travel, I shall be counting the hours till my Owner finishes work and heads to the airport! Then let the fun begin, as he flies I will be travelling by coach both heading to the same destination and it can't come a moment too so in my eyes!
So the next month I hope passes in a blur....I hope it just disappears in the blink of an eye...we have 12 days together that will go so quickly just as they did when I visited him, but we will make the most of them just as we did then and will do again this time.
So your have to excuse me if I keep counting days....your have to forgive me if all I can talk about is the holiday and my Owner. I am one very excited submissive!
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
Orgasm Denial....
With respect to my Owner,
OK so picture the scene if you will....
It's late at night and by late I mean the early hours of the morning. Your on SL with your Owner/Master/Partner/Lover and the RP is very intense and I do mean VERY intense. There are elements of RL going through it and your on the edge of an almighty orgasm and then...RL takes over and you have to leave the happy place you were in.
Oh boy Orgasm Denial is without a doubt the most amazing thing in the world. OK so I don't want to give away all the details but I can assure you that my Owner had me right on the edge and he was loving every second of it and then because of the time zone difference, which sometimes can be such a pain, we had to stop.
Have you tried stopping? Have you tried holding back? Do you have any idea how hard that is? Your body is in such a relaxed state, your heart is pounding, you know just one more word could send you right over the edge into ripples and spasms of pleasure and trying to come down off that high takes willpower and determination.
But something I learnt to is that there is real pleasure in that as well. It has a very weird and powerful reaction on the mind and the body and I can assure you that I slept well. In fact I had the most amazing nights sleep. I guess because other things in my real life had resolved themselves and my body was so relaxed my brain switched off and I found myself in a deep sleep and this morning I feel happy and refreshed and love life.
So do I like Orgasm Denial? I think the answer is yes, as a once in a while treat to have the senses tingling and send me into a much happier place but I am not sure I could handle that regularly
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
OK so picture the scene if you will....
It's late at night and by late I mean the early hours of the morning. Your on SL with your Owner/Master/Partner/Lover and the RP is very intense and I do mean VERY intense. There are elements of RL going through it and your on the edge of an almighty orgasm and then...RL takes over and you have to leave the happy place you were in.
Oh boy Orgasm Denial is without a doubt the most amazing thing in the world. OK so I don't want to give away all the details but I can assure you that my Owner had me right on the edge and he was loving every second of it and then because of the time zone difference, which sometimes can be such a pain, we had to stop.
Have you tried stopping? Have you tried holding back? Do you have any idea how hard that is? Your body is in such a relaxed state, your heart is pounding, you know just one more word could send you right over the edge into ripples and spasms of pleasure and trying to come down off that high takes willpower and determination.
But something I learnt to is that there is real pleasure in that as well. It has a very weird and powerful reaction on the mind and the body and I can assure you that I slept well. In fact I had the most amazing nights sleep. I guess because other things in my real life had resolved themselves and my body was so relaxed my brain switched off and I found myself in a deep sleep and this morning I feel happy and refreshed and love life.
So do I like Orgasm Denial? I think the answer is yes, as a once in a while treat to have the senses tingling and send me into a much happier place but I am not sure I could handle that regularly
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
Friday, 7 October 2011
Things happen for a reason
With respect to my Owner,
So as you may already be aware, RL work has been a cause for concern for me over recent weeks and months and yesterday finally to an extent it was dealt with. It actually had some surprising results in my eyes but still has things that need to be worked upon.
However I do feel much more relaxed and am finally taking a deep breath once more which I know is a relief to my Owner who has seen me probably at my worst over the last couple of weeks and I owe him the biggest hug when I see him. So apart from ironing out a couple of issues with management I can now concentrate on looking forward to my Holiday and being with my Owner once more.
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
So as you may already be aware, RL work has been a cause for concern for me over recent weeks and months and yesterday finally to an extent it was dealt with. It actually had some surprising results in my eyes but still has things that need to be worked upon.
However I do feel much more relaxed and am finally taking a deep breath once more which I know is a relief to my Owner who has seen me probably at my worst over the last couple of weeks and I owe him the biggest hug when I see him. So apart from ironing out a couple of issues with management I can now concentrate on looking forward to my Holiday and being with my Owner once more.
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
Monday, 3 October 2011
D/s=(Control+Command)x(Love+Guidance)
With respect to my Owner,
So as you should all be aware by now there is a massive ocean and many, many, many miles between my Owner and I. However we have found a way to not let that bother us as we go about our lives never far from each other thoughts and almost always in contact in one way or another.
However as time has gone by I have found that bit by bit, as we opened up to this D/s part of our lives and enjoyed the closeness and the freedom that goes with it, control is something I crave from him every day. The more we have settled into this the more we are finding ways to allow him that control, even with the distance between us.
And just this past week that has proved to be a god send. In moments when RL work gets on top of me, or SL has fits and things I want to do don't work, or simply when I need him most and miss him more than I ever thought possible, that control that he has shines through and takes over. Suddenly I give him everything, no holding back and I hang on to his every spoken word or command and obey all that he tells me until he is satisfied that I am calm once more.
Currently my RL work is a cause for major concern and has left me feeling somewhat lost and confused as well as very angry and sad all at the same time. As I struggle to find order in my work life and approach this week with care my Owner has come into his own. His words can clearly be heard in my head in quiet moments, his commands in email understood and taken on-board. His collar, that I wear so proudly, and his love and protection mean so much to me right now and just when I felt like hiding from the world, admitting to him that I felt a failure, he reminded me that this is not the case, that the people I work for, the ones who should be keeping my best interests in mind are the ones that have failed and let me down.
And so another lesson is learnt, one that I knew but took for granted, when a submissive/slave and their Owner (Master or Mistress) really connect, on so many levels, the guidance that the Owner imparts on their owned is as important as every other part of their D/s lifestyle.
I know that the last week has been hard on him as he has listened to my struggles and heard my tears, knowing that he can only comfort and sooth me with words when I am sure that what he really wants to do is pull me close to him and protect me from the world and that although he can't do that physically he has managed to do that through the control and command that we have been exploring and building upon since we stumbled upon these desires that make us and our relationship tick.
So my Owner I just want to say 'Thank you' to you, although right now the words don't seem to be enough, for being my rock. I am, of course, aware that this week will be just as hard as the last in some respects, but not in others, however you are the strength that gets me through this and will help me to see clearly on the other side and in a few weeks time you do get to pull me close to you once more and I can't wait for that, because quite honestly, I need my Owner.
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
So as you should all be aware by now there is a massive ocean and many, many, many miles between my Owner and I. However we have found a way to not let that bother us as we go about our lives never far from each other thoughts and almost always in contact in one way or another.
However as time has gone by I have found that bit by bit, as we opened up to this D/s part of our lives and enjoyed the closeness and the freedom that goes with it, control is something I crave from him every day. The more we have settled into this the more we are finding ways to allow him that control, even with the distance between us.
And just this past week that has proved to be a god send. In moments when RL work gets on top of me, or SL has fits and things I want to do don't work, or simply when I need him most and miss him more than I ever thought possible, that control that he has shines through and takes over. Suddenly I give him everything, no holding back and I hang on to his every spoken word or command and obey all that he tells me until he is satisfied that I am calm once more.
Currently my RL work is a cause for major concern and has left me feeling somewhat lost and confused as well as very angry and sad all at the same time. As I struggle to find order in my work life and approach this week with care my Owner has come into his own. His words can clearly be heard in my head in quiet moments, his commands in email understood and taken on-board. His collar, that I wear so proudly, and his love and protection mean so much to me right now and just when I felt like hiding from the world, admitting to him that I felt a failure, he reminded me that this is not the case, that the people I work for, the ones who should be keeping my best interests in mind are the ones that have failed and let me down.
And so another lesson is learnt, one that I knew but took for granted, when a submissive/slave and their Owner (Master or Mistress) really connect, on so many levels, the guidance that the Owner imparts on their owned is as important as every other part of their D/s lifestyle.
I know that the last week has been hard on him as he has listened to my struggles and heard my tears, knowing that he can only comfort and sooth me with words when I am sure that what he really wants to do is pull me close to him and protect me from the world and that although he can't do that physically he has managed to do that through the control and command that we have been exploring and building upon since we stumbled upon these desires that make us and our relationship tick.
So my Owner I just want to say 'Thank you' to you, although right now the words don't seem to be enough, for being my rock. I am, of course, aware that this week will be just as hard as the last in some respects, but not in others, however you are the strength that gets me through this and will help me to see clearly on the other side and in a few weeks time you do get to pull me close to you once more and I can't wait for that, because quite honestly, I need my Owner.
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
Saturday, 1 October 2011
Not Busy enough?....Family grows again
With Respect to my Owner,
With just over a month to go before my Owner and I take a well deserved break, you would think I had enough to do. Apparently it would appear not....so picture the scene if you will.
I was packing the first part of our suitcases and tidying stuff away, what with the kids away at school it was stuff they wouldn't need for a while and deciding on which pictures from the mountains of wedding pictures that we have to put in the album. Anyway it struck me watching Farshore Pup and Kitty sleeping that they were both getting on in their years. I was smiling as I thought about how much joy they had brought the kids as they grew up and at that very moment one of the twins I was carrying moved around and gave me an idea. I wanted out twins to have pets to keep them company so I headed out in search of a new family pet. Ideally I wanted one the twins could share maybe something different.
Now my Owner knows I am a sucker for anything cute and you guessed it...stopping at one pet with twins was never going to cut it....so I ended up buying 2 kittens...Peridot (the male) and Amethyst (the female) pictures below and of course that also meant bowls and food and milk and baskets and toys. My poor will hate when the bill comes in....but they are so cute...scampering around the house and all sorts.
So not only am I almost half way through this Pregnancy carrying two bundles of life within, I am now chasing two little bundles all over the house. My Owner was rather surprised when he returned from business to find the two of them curled up asleep, but not that surprised he knows what I am like by now.
Still they are cute....
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
With just over a month to go before my Owner and I take a well deserved break, you would think I had enough to do. Apparently it would appear not....so picture the scene if you will.
I was packing the first part of our suitcases and tidying stuff away, what with the kids away at school it was stuff they wouldn't need for a while and deciding on which pictures from the mountains of wedding pictures that we have to put in the album. Anyway it struck me watching Farshore Pup and Kitty sleeping that they were both getting on in their years. I was smiling as I thought about how much joy they had brought the kids as they grew up and at that very moment one of the twins I was carrying moved around and gave me an idea. I wanted out twins to have pets to keep them company so I headed out in search of a new family pet. Ideally I wanted one the twins could share maybe something different.
Now my Owner knows I am a sucker for anything cute and you guessed it...stopping at one pet with twins was never going to cut it....so I ended up buying 2 kittens...Peridot (the male) and Amethyst (the female) pictures below and of course that also meant bowls and food and milk and baskets and toys. My poor will hate when the bill comes in....but they are so cute...scampering around the house and all sorts.
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| The Kittens |
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| Cute....the kittens I mean! |
So not only am I almost half way through this Pregnancy carrying two bundles of life within, I am now chasing two little bundles all over the house. My Owner was rather surprised when he returned from business to find the two of them curled up asleep, but not that surprised he knows what I am like by now.
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| Peridot |
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| Amethyst |
signed his submissive owned
447-342-364
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